missing my airman more than ever!

yesterday all i could think about was Charles.....i know hes strong but it doesn't make it any easier. some of my family and my best friend got together at the olive garden and talked about the baby shower. it really went well and i think everything is going to go smoothly. the hospital called and asked if i would work extra last night because of a call off....oh boy if Charles knew i did that he would be upset but i need to keep busy. it still didn't keep my mind off of him though. people just kept saying its cold and i would mutter u have no idea what cold is...then i would explain. work was busy last night....not sure why but it felt like i could not sit down all night. tonight is the last night then i am off for too....then idk what i will do, maybe i will just do some baby shower stuff.
it killed me this morning driving home. usually i have a message or a good morning dear waiting for me, but no not this morning. only a few more days....thats what i keep saying. i came home and went to sleep....just so i didn't have to see pictures or talk to anyone about the weather, or Charles, or basically anything. :( it will be ok. alright....i am going to try and be productive today before i take another nap and head into work.....